One sentence; "Here it is . . . "

Going to Alpine end of Feb. or 3/1 going by bus. Will meet Dave either at bus station or post.

Letter regarding asking parents for $6000 for "medical reasons." Goes on about mistreatment as a child and parents hypocrisy and selfishness. Advise Dave there can be no
reconciliation with parents. Admonishes Dave not to psychoanalyze Ted. The letter gets angrier as it goes along.

Continuation of discussion of $6000. Continuation on Joel's schizoid problem. Mentions people who work in "nuthouse." Like Uncle Benny most are low quality & incompetent. Real distaste for psychoanalysis & practitioners of same. Translation: Ted discusses Indo-European languages & the origin of the words “much” & “macho.” Ted tells Dave he has the
. . . ”soul of a turnip.” Ted constructed two charts translating English words into other languages.

Ted very angry at Dave; Ted's "hospital experience”; anger toward parents; Ted's teens; Ted's being repeatedly insulted w/o retaliating; Dave telling Ted he was a "gloomy kid”! "sick";
questioning parents’ treatment of him (Ted). Ted discusses relationship with his brother Dave, giving up his assistant professorship, and quotes Sense and Nonsense and I'm Ok - You're
Ok.

Ted explains why he resents his parents. Ted believed his parents were sorry he turned out so rotten. States he tends to get "hot & angry in frustrating circumstances"- that's why he criticized Dave so much. Doesn't like to be interrogated about his health, especially blood pressure which escalates when he's under great tension. Stated he rarely reads newspapers or magazines. Gives Dave Spanish grammar tips.

Translation: Ted relates a personal story regarding his encounter w/an innocent 16/17 year-old Hutterite (a member of a Mennonite sect) of girl,...”she must be very religious;....she is
very timid and prudish; very dedicated and innocent.” After reading Beneath the Mask, by June Leiby, Ted states the next time he encounters one of these girls he would stare at her crotch; Ted says ....”the innocent, timid, prudish Hutterite...Bah! Better to call her a whore.” Ted read a book written by G. Garcia Marquez. One story he finds interesting centers around the psychology of a senile 94 year old priest. In another letter he discusses his heart condition, due to the mental stress. He has 3 dreams. First dream is about loggers/machinery cutting down trees; the second dream, he sees his cabin surrounded by other cabins; in his third dream his cabin is isolated in the middle of a shopping center. He calls off his trip to Lincoln in order to protect his property boundaries. Later he changes his mind and schedules his trip to get away from the noise. P.S. He makes the statement
that he hates his parents; was touched by Dave’s offer of money, but won’t take it because Dave has earned “financial security;” states he has ...”a strong aversion to taking
welfare.”

Discusses Juan Sanchez; one of Juan’s dreams; relates the Vampire Story.

Ted changes his mind & will go to Alpine to visit Dave. What days he would like to arrive Wed./Fri. so he can visit the bank. Ask Dave where he can leave message so he doesn't wait all day at bus stop.

Ted writes about visit to the doctor re: tetanus and polio vaccines; worries about offending the Mexicans by not eating or drinking; quotes A History of the German Language, by John T. Waterman.